Self-imposed Prison

我活在被自己约束的空间 有时看见他人自由展次生命，无穷憧憬 有时看见他人劣于自己，无穷憎恨 时代进步至今，世界渲染民主意识，人民可以自由生活 但有多少人能真正拥有心灵的自由 这么多年，我试着了解自己，这寻找力量的泉源的旅途来到了这一站： 恍然发现我活得像个罪人，不是我犯了罪，而是我被关在监狱里 而三个罪状是惰性，恐惧与求反美 有人说，把你恐惧的事情一一克服，能让你感觉更加强大。 尝试着，的确如此。 始终面对惰性，我是一个随波主导的人， 在中华勤奋奋斗一族里，我也跟着奋斗， 当朋友终日打机娱乐的环境下，我试着防抗继续奋斗，但我忧郁了。 至少我是一个要依赖上进环境的人而成长的人 所以我想，只要多参与上进人就可以克服这个罪状吧 而求完美，困扰我最多，而也是我最早领悟解脱的 谢谢上天 恩赐此名 风影

Ireland + Me

来到英国，玩了伦敦，爱尔兰，过后要去瑞士

首先，就记载我在爱尔兰去了那些地方。。

Day 1:
Guinness Storehouse
Kilmainham Gaol(Jail)

Day 2:
Dublin Castle
Christ Church Cathedral
Viking House
National Wax Museum

Day 3:
Trinity College, Dublin (Old library)
National Library of Ireland

Day 4:
Water exhibition
National Museum of Natural History
National Museum of Archaeology
Leinster house (outside view) -parliament of ireland-

Also went to
-Palace Bar
-Potterhouse Bar
- etc bar

俊杰，下次你来到了，你再带我走你的大学 =）
还有那些民间小巷 =）

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从高二失去自我
是其中的一个我，那个能完全持之以恒的我
能每天完成自己所设下的目标

万分怀念与渴望那个我
唯有体验了艰苦的境遇，才会有精进奋发的心

我没有艰苦的境遇，一直活在舒适的环境，但渴望那颗心
我要到最接近天堂的地方，寻找那颗心
我的目标们
总需要有萌生发芽的一天
学业
音乐
投资
健身
生命

最后写下一句让我不再有完美主义的话语，
不再那么执著的语录

你要知道这个世间是一个一半一半的世界
白天一半 晚上一半
正一半 邪一半
就是你喜欢的一半 你不喜欢的一半
就是光明一半 黑暗一半
（星云）师父讲的 大概一口气讲了20几个一半一半
而你呢 因为你只能接受 美好的 光明的 喜欢的 如法的
你只能接受这一半 你根本拥有的是一个 残缺不全的世间
我当时真的是吓了一跳
我以为 我很要求完美
结果我却是残缺
所以师父就说 你不要急
直到你把另外那一半
黑暗的 丑陋的 你不喜欢的这一半 都包容进去之后
你就可以拥有一个完美的世间

大家加油！

满足感

猜想为何现代人坐在电脑面前时，会先选择玩电子游戏机、浏览乱七八糟的网页，然后才选择自己正经的功课或工作？
这问题困扰了我很久，明明前者无法让我得到长期的快乐，无法让我达成我设下的目标，明明让我自己觉得自己在浪费时间，却为何还继续呢？

他们同样是需要重复同样的事情，比如Facebook 按击游戏和重复温习课业
两者沉闷的程度都是一样的

Humans only find repetition enjoyable when they choose it.

就像现实生活，在游戏里你肯能成功或失败，这代表了游戏不但没有带给你快乐，反而有时带给你烦恼。。。而带来的快乐是虚假的，当你停止游戏，面对生活时，你还是空虚的。。。

游戏就那么容易让人满足吗？是否让自己为正经事满足呢？

From Malcolm Gladwell Job satisfaction theory: (I just uses his point, but interpret them differently)

(1)Autonomy 自主 在游戏世界里，你是角色扮演，可以有自由地选择自己的道路，而往往在现实生活中我们都是受限制的，比如被人家管，被环境逼才去学习或做工，造成环境控制了你，而你却失去了控制的权力

没有人喜欢被人家管，所以你需要在自愿的情况下做事情

(2)Complexity 复杂 这必须是具有挑战性的事情，在工作上人们希望有挑战的而不是一层不变的；学习中也是，当你挑战复杂的事情，而别人无法解决，你就会有动力继续挑战下去，这代表人们都必须选择自己有天赋的工作或学科，这样才能有能力挑战下去

要知道，这世界不需要你样样都通，小学中学学业样样好也没用，到大学你还是要选择一样学位来修，也代表你要选择你最有潜力的科目或工作

(3)Connection Between Effort and Reward 你需要情绪上的动力来完成一样东西，在游戏世界里，你的努力和获得的功劳是息息相关的，反而在现实中，我们往往需要很久的努力，在可以看到功劳，造成情绪上失去了动力

在要交功课的前一天，你会想不如先玩游戏，可以顿时得到努力的功劳，比如说在对打游戏胜利，然后才做功课，因为功课的功劳是在半年后才看得到

对你做的事情产生满足感，是人生动力的一部分

Intern Learning:Gambling & Accounting

Today I am going to share two things I learn in my internship at Interpacific

The first one is why investment without strategy is a gamble.
Provided you have no any knowledge about economics and stock markets, if you invest in any random stocks, the chance for it to rise =0.5

However there is a commission for buying and selling stocks
Everytime you buy any stocks, you need to pay
Stamp duty= 0.1% of money invest
Clearing fees= 0.03% with a ceiling of RM200
Brokerage fees:
Offline(Which means you call your brokerage firms to help you to buy or sell)
Online( You buy or sell yourself through online)
Offline brokerage= 0.6% below 100k invest(Minimum=rm40),0.3% for above 100k invest
There will be a 20% discount which is nearly 0.42% for below 100k invest(minimum=rm28)
*Trader account commission = stamp duty only = 0.03%

So there is around 0.73% of fees everytime you buy or sell a stocks
So your loss in such cost=1.46%
So your probability of winning is less than 0.5
Implying you are gambling
(The probability of picking a rising stock=0.5 is just an assumption. Since economic is generally growing , chances for stock to rise is actually>0.5 but I cant locate the data, so let's just put it simple)

Second thing is about Accounting , Let's put the following things as mathematical equations:

Tangible Asset= Total Asset-Intangible Asset
Net tangible Asset= Book value= Tangible Asset - Total Liabilities
= Total Asset- Intangible Asset-Total Liabilities
Tangible Book Value= Common Equity- Intangible Asset
Common Equity= Share capital + Additional paid in capital+ Retained earnings

So what is the difference or relation between book value & tangible book value.
I can't figure out through maths, anyone from accounting knows the answer?

Intern 3-4

Doing the dividend yield stuff all the time, hopefully it will be a useful report for others ... going to write y economics news regarding the list on my own ... bloomberg is really useful ,listing all the stuff that you want.

I learn to split my investment portfolio into 3 category, low,medium and high risk ... certainly the low risk will be buying high dividend yeld stocks ...

Learnt my first investment strategy Rule1 ... Gonna try it out with virtual stock market ...
Plan to memorise all stocks in BursaMalaysia ... easier to learn Malaysia market ... by then ... at least I can understand all those news ...

Intern day1-2

Am going to write down interesting about my internship in Interpacific Research Department, just to keep a record ... Geez

First of all, glad to be in Research Department because I am able to touch the Bloomberg computer worth RM 10k per month for subscription ... It is like a wikipedia mostly for Economics and Finance ... First day, I learn all those commands by reading tutorial documents, glad there are tutorial videos & online examination too !! .. So am able to get a certificate as a Bloomberg user ... Am going to take the test ... Another good thing about this computer is I can message for Help whenever I do not know how to use those functions ... As for today, I arrange companies according to dividend yield and later on market capacity ... However dividend yield is inaccurate due to the fact companies are undergoing "capital repayment", means they sell their capital to pay back investors.

I start up learning arranging morning news for Interpacific users, it is just about copy and paste from other websites. Another hot topic in my department is OldTown!! ... It is just listed today with an IPO 1.25, and I guess the average price for it today is 1.37, so that will be a 8% earning if you buy it and it is just a few months... Actually it is quite low considering 8%,you will have better opportunity if you are in financial field. For example, MSM which is a sugar company, if you buy it on the first day (2.6)and sell it on the second day(3.9), it is already 33% earning, if you keep it for a week , it is 5.2, you just double your asset... However playing without researching is still quite risky... It may seem payout is pretty high, but no knowledge in finacial field is equal to trowing money away ....

Well I heard a teenager come out as a trader without finishing SPM, earn 22m as a trader but later on bankrupt, so dont think it is great to be in the financial line

Well I am gonna introduce my mates for one time
Rosali- A quiet malay senior
Robert- Hilarious man, 2 years here, teaching me stuff all the time, but he is quiet busy so I am actually playing Bloomberg all the time
Wendy- 2 years senior, friendly too
Juliet- another intern, from U Sarawak, live in Cameron Highland

Well ... kinda free though, reading my own books , playing Bloomberg
there is a dirty secret from my department ... hehe ...

And the clue is MIDF ... Shhh

I love what?

I like writing my feelings
I like analyzing things
I like composing music
I like writing novels
I like helping others
I like my imagination
I like Mathematics
I like Investment
I like philosophy
I like basketball
I like travelling
I like badminton
I like sleeping
I like mystery
I like gaming
I like movies
I like music

But what do I really love?
As in I will feel happy even I am put under great pressure ...
Or even meeting up tons of failure even I have put in all I have
Or even losing hope and reason during the process

But I will still continue doing that particular thing
What is that?
The thing that I meant to love ...