Saturday, December 25, 2010
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
天赋
我不知道为何，旋律可以在脑海中变成一首首曲，虽然没有太高的音乐造诣
也许这是上天给我的礼物，可以写文学，可以写曲，让音乐成为我的伴侣
也许这一生，我没有任何东西可以抱怨 ...
即使孤单时，可以想象小说，想象歌曲 ...
要学习音乐的语文, 才可以写音乐。音符，这样歌曲才能完成
要学习人生的语文, 才可以写生命。哲学，这样人生才能完整
寻找到人生的目的，同时找到努力下去的原因
在我众多愿望中，我还有一个愿望，那就是在18岁前能摆脱一切欲望诱惑
这样我才能写一个有意义的人生
天赋给我的力量，需要完整了自己，才能帮助别人
Sunday, October 31, 2010
第二世界
天使与天使的对话，只有天使才理解
因为这第二世界的语言
是我创造力的力量
是我们永恒的爱情
为你创作的新宇宙，只有你我的宇宙
等到世界末日来临，只有你我仍活着
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蔚蓝的天空，云朵随风飘移，变成你想要的形状
带你飞入云海，感受白云温柔的抚摸，
你会躺在风中，闭上眼睛，记得你只能微笑
风神麻痹了你的耳朵，呼呼的，顿时成了优雅的旋律
当你沉醉在此，我会牵着你的手，带你继续飞翔
你会从此为我张开迷人的双眼，以微笑相随，
你知道我会带给你更完美的景象，你所期待的我都能给你
因为只有天使，才能看见天使的世界
你我来到这里，淡蓝的天空，青蓝的海洋，
这两者都联合成一体，
水波从天而降，从看不见的银河飞流直下，
与海平钱紧紧得链接着，无法分离
就像你我，手牵着，心连着，脑海中只有彼此的温柔
我会告诉你这不是瀑布，而是流动不息的能量
你会跟我一起跳入那瀑布般的流水
感受柔水的细致入微，抚摸清廉的身体
你会感受从未的快乐，让你永远只有阳光般的笑容
让你得到清新的眼眶，看见更多的美好
就这样你我潜入了第二世界，
里边有丛林般的珊瑚海，会呼吸的世界
所有小动物都会排着队，等待你天使般的拥抱
你终于相信，我永远会在你左右，
会带你看见更美丽的场景，
会天天陪你看日出日落，
然后看十二星座的闪烁。
我会带你离开这悲伤的世界，
这连太阳都放弃的黑暗世界
我会帮你脱离这一切坎坷的煎熬
让你记得你原来的命运，你是天使
亲爱的，我不会让你难过，
我会在你悲伤之极时紧紧抱着你，
我的热藤的心跳让你不再寒冷，
你会紧紧抱着我，以你微小的口音，
叫我带你离开这世界。。。
我会带你飞翔，飞去你不曾想像的完美世界
从此，你会永远说“我很幸福”
因为那是最动人的声音，永恒的声音
我们冻结了时间，时间为我们而存在
我们手牵着手
我会永远爱你
至：我爱的你
因为这第二世界的语言
是我创造力的力量
是我们永恒的爱情
为你创作的新宇宙，只有你我的宇宙
等到世界末日来临，只有你我仍活着
-------------
蔚蓝的天空，云朵随风飘移，变成你想要的形状
带你飞入云海，感受白云温柔的抚摸，
你会躺在风中，闭上眼睛，记得你只能微笑
风神麻痹了你的耳朵，呼呼的，顿时成了优雅的旋律
当你沉醉在此，我会牵着你的手，带你继续飞翔
你会从此为我张开迷人的双眼，以微笑相随，
你知道我会带给你更完美的景象，你所期待的我都能给你
因为只有天使，才能看见天使的世界
你我来到这里，淡蓝的天空，青蓝的海洋，
这两者都联合成一体，
水波从天而降，从看不见的银河飞流直下，
与海平钱紧紧得链接着，无法分离
就像你我，手牵着，心连着，脑海中只有彼此的温柔
我会告诉你这不是瀑布，而是流动不息的能量
你会跟我一起跳入那瀑布般的流水
感受柔水的细致入微，抚摸清廉的身体
你会感受从未的快乐，让你永远只有阳光般的笑容
让你得到清新的眼眶，看见更多的美好
就这样你我潜入了第二世界，
里边有丛林般的珊瑚海，会呼吸的世界
所有小动物都会排着队，等待你天使般的拥抱
你终于相信，我永远会在你左右，
会带你看见更美丽的场景，
会天天陪你看日出日落，
然后看十二星座的闪烁。
我会带你离开这悲伤的世界，
这连太阳都放弃的黑暗世界
我会帮你脱离这一切坎坷的煎熬
让你记得你原来的命运，你是天使
亲爱的，我不会让你难过，
我会在你悲伤之极时紧紧抱着你，
我的热藤的心跳让你不再寒冷，
你会紧紧抱着我，以你微小的口音，
叫我带你离开这世界。。。
我会带你飞翔，飞去你不曾想像的完美世界
从此，你会永远说“我很幸福”
因为那是最动人的声音，永恒的声音
我们冻结了时间，时间为我们而存在
我们手牵着手
我会永远爱你
至：我爱的你
Saturday, October 23, 2010
再别康桥
虽然不知道结果会是怎样但是还是蛮值得的。。。
申请剑桥，让人期待，让人伤心
他们说，读剑桥，会让你成为你人生的作者
对于一个作者来说，创作一个故事，就像活在幻想中
My entire interview:
I=interviewer, M =me
M: I have been anticipating this day for a really long time
I: pardon ( lol first sentence ... I talk so softly)
M:I have been anticipating this day for a really long time
I:Me too , in another way ...
I:so how's Help
M: Help is really good and helpful , they prepare us more many things, like for the Oxbridge interview and also let potential world award winner to have extra training class
I: what did they train you guys for the interview...
M: err... stun there ... but they can't train our ability
(referring back to my ps)
I: So you won many competitions, and you are applying to Trinity, why do you apply to Trinity?
M:Because Trinity is big and gorgeous
I: Magdalene is small and gorgeous
M: and there's many people in Trinity , I want to meet more people > < lll
I: hand me a paper with question (factorise x^2 + 2i)
M:then I start to do the usual way ... then after a while I stop there because I am thinking ... how come so complicated d
I: you are doing the right way , go on ...
M: still stun there
I: for my level I can know the answer by first sight , by guessing it is easier to see the answer
M: can I guess?
I: go ahead
M: then I write (x-1+i)(x-1-i)
I: alright there you go ..
M:I guess correctly?? wow ...
I: nono ... check the answer ... Trinity must be really dissapointed if we do things like that
M: (find out it is the wrong answer) err wrong guess
I: hmm .. let me do it myself ... then he write (x-(1+i))(x+(1+i))
M: but I check back my long method .. it should be something like 1-i , and I told him
I: err xxx , ok now I need you to factorise x^4 + 4
M: (x^2+2i)(x^2 -2i)
I: there you go ... now I need you to factorise into 4 linear form
M: (eii ... how come (x-(1+i))(x+(1+i)) = (x^2 -2i)) ... then I told him that he did wrongly for the previous one
I: then he checked ... hmm you must never trust an interviewer
M: then I write the answer : (x-(1+i))(x+(1+i))(x-(1-i))(x+(1-i))
M: now factorise x^4 +4 into 2 quadratic form with real coefficient
I: then I write (x^2 -2x +2) (x^2 +2x +2)
M: ok now prove that x^4 + 4 is always a prime no.
I: then I say .. one factor must be 1
M: (x^2 -2x +2) (x^2 +2x +2) = ((x-1)^2 +1) ((x+1)^2 +1)
I: one of them must be greater than one right?
M:( thinking .. how come when x=2, it is not a prime no. zzz) both of them are greater than one
I: so it is not a prime no. (something like that)
I: in your form .. you said that you are applying for Jardine , if you didnt get .. can you parents support you finance?
M: they can
I: good ... so you must sure to get 4 A star for your A-levels
M: for maths definitely
I: ya I can see that ... there is a written test at Sunway this college , so you wont have much problems ba since you can do this question
M: stun there ( I always so humble d lar)
I: ok I think it is about time ...
M: I have a request actually ?
I: what izzit
M: I want to join your financial research team , I read that you research for financial engineering
I: xxx,my team is really small , about x , but we normally won't take freshman , if we take ,normally for them is just some boring stuff
M: I don't mind
I: ok .. I will bare you in mind
M: I read that you invest in financial market
I: I write models to estimate the market , we normally need to keep on write and change our model because things change rapidly , if we use the old one then it is irrelevant
M: could it be due to US economic crisis?
I: no ... I normally invest in the Asia market , not the US market ... and for Asia it changes so rapidly
M: why
I: because there is so many political factors in Asia , the politics in Asia are not stable
I: i think it should be around that , there is other people waiting outside , it is my pleasure to talk to you , I wish to talk more but there is not enough time
M: thank you Dr stuart martin ...
quite well ( around 35~40 minutes interview)
I did so well for my A-levels (Sem 1) (5 subjects), Step , S for step 1 , 1 for step 2 , and interview ( quite ok lar ... I will rank myself 7/10)
everyone is like so shocked when I corrected the interviewer .. it's actually nothing , everyone make mistake mar ...
and the last one is written test
就像给你很完美的生命， 到最后一分钟跟你说，一切都是假的，你做的都是白废的
7 questions 1 question : do 6 out of 10 question .. I took around 45 minutes for it
I chose the trigo question .. when I see it , wow I am so lucky , I just did it in STEP 2 2004 past years yesterday ... like that also I can do dao ... but !! I can't get the answer ?? how come gosh
next one I chose a complex number ... factorise z^9-1 and make it into 1 liner form and 4 quadratic form .... I was taught how to do ... but zzz
the last one is a mechanic question , ball A,B,C in a straight line , what range will there be so B will collide A for second time ... in my mind I kept on thinking ... B must change direction to collide zz ...
estimate mark : 42%
my estimated marks for step 2 is 70++ and I get rank 1 ...
this time I really screw my written test ... so sad .. sad dao no feeling jor
我没有爱情，学业就像我的一切，是种伤心
现实和幻想混浊了，我分不清
如果上天要给我剑桥，为何会让我最后一个考试考到酱烂，不明白，就好像我被玩了一圈，interview觉得自己应该可以进了，现在却不一定了。。
被玩的感觉，但也许是上天在告诉我，我想给你进剑桥，但是你要知觉你还需好很努力，即使进到了
我只想，让我读过的学校骄傲
也许数学好不是天生的，就像刘明华
即使新加坡，香港学的数学很深，但是到了大学也不一定厉害，因为中学是把全部资料塞进你的头脑
可是大学是你自己找资料，
我在HELP浪费了太多时间，变笨了太多
重新呼吸吧。。。至少你有了方向，懂得好如何用你的生命
申请剑桥，让人期待，让人伤心
他们说，读剑桥，会让你成为你人生的作者
对于一个作者来说，创作一个故事，就像活在幻想中
My entire interview:
I=interviewer, M =me
M: I have been anticipating this day for a really long time
I: pardon ( lol first sentence ... I talk so softly)
M:I have been anticipating this day for a really long time
I:Me too , in another way ...
I:so how's Help
M: Help is really good and helpful , they prepare us more many things, like for the Oxbridge interview and also let potential world award winner to have extra training class
I: what did they train you guys for the interview...
M: err... stun there ... but they can't train our ability
(referring back to my ps)
I: So you won many competitions, and you are applying to Trinity, why do you apply to Trinity?
M:Because Trinity is big and gorgeous
I: Magdalene is small and gorgeous
M: and there's many people in Trinity , I want to meet more people > < lll
I: hand me a paper with question (factorise x^2 + 2i)
M:then I start to do the usual way ... then after a while I stop there because I am thinking ... how come so complicated d
I: you are doing the right way , go on ...
M: still stun there
I: for my level I can know the answer by first sight , by guessing it is easier to see the answer
M: can I guess?
I: go ahead
M: then I write (x-1+i)(x-1-i)
I: alright there you go ..
M:I guess correctly?? wow ...
I: nono ... check the answer ... Trinity must be really dissapointed if we do things like that
M: (find out it is the wrong answer) err wrong guess
I: hmm .. let me do it myself ... then he write (x-(1+i))(x+(1+i))
M: but I check back my long method .. it should be something like 1-i , and I told him
I: err xxx , ok now I need you to factorise x^4 + 4
M: (x^2+2i)(x^2 -2i)
I: there you go ... now I need you to factorise into 4 linear form
M: (eii ... how come (x-(1+i))(x+(1+i)) = (x^2 -2i)) ... then I told him that he did wrongly for the previous one
I: then he checked ... hmm you must never trust an interviewer
M: then I write the answer : (x-(1+i))(x+(1+i))(x-(1-i))(x+(1-i))
M: now factorise x^4 +4 into 2 quadratic form with real coefficient
I: then I write (x^2 -2x +2) (x^2 +2x +2)
M: ok now prove that x^4 + 4 is always a prime no.
I: then I say .. one factor must be 1
M: (x^2 -2x +2) (x^2 +2x +2) = ((x-1)^2 +1) ((x+1)^2 +1)
I: one of them must be greater than one right?
M:( thinking .. how come when x=2, it is not a prime no. zzz) both of them are greater than one
I: so it is not a prime no. (something like that)
I: in your form .. you said that you are applying for Jardine , if you didnt get .. can you parents support you finance?
M: they can
I: good ... so you must sure to get 4 A star for your A-levels
M: for maths definitely
I: ya I can see that ... there is a written test at Sunway this college , so you wont have much problems ba since you can do this question
M: stun there ( I always so humble d lar)
I: ok I think it is about time ...
M: I have a request actually ?
I: what izzit
M: I want to join your financial research team , I read that you research for financial engineering
I: xxx,my team is really small , about x , but we normally won't take freshman , if we take ,normally for them is just some boring stuff
M: I don't mind
I: ok .. I will bare you in mind
M: I read that you invest in financial market
I: I write models to estimate the market , we normally need to keep on write and change our model because things change rapidly , if we use the old one then it is irrelevant
M: could it be due to US economic crisis?
I: no ... I normally invest in the Asia market , not the US market ... and for Asia it changes so rapidly
M: why
I: because there is so many political factors in Asia , the politics in Asia are not stable
I: i think it should be around that , there is other people waiting outside , it is my pleasure to talk to you , I wish to talk more but there is not enough time
M: thank you Dr stuart martin ...
quite well ( around 35~40 minutes interview)
I did so well for my A-levels (Sem 1) (5 subjects), Step , S for step 1 , 1 for step 2 , and interview ( quite ok lar ... I will rank myself 7/10)
everyone is like so shocked when I corrected the interviewer .. it's actually nothing , everyone make mistake mar ...
and the last one is written test
就像给你很完美的生命， 到最后一分钟跟你说，一切都是假的，你做的都是白废的
7 questions 1 question : do 6 out of 10 question .. I took around 45 minutes for it
I chose the trigo question .. when I see it , wow I am so lucky , I just did it in STEP 2 2004 past years yesterday ... like that also I can do dao ... but !! I can't get the answer ?? how come gosh
next one I chose a complex number ... factorise z^9-1 and make it into 1 liner form and 4 quadratic form .... I was taught how to do ... but zzz
the last one is a mechanic question , ball A,B,C in a straight line , what range will there be so B will collide A for second time ... in my mind I kept on thinking ... B must change direction to collide zz ...
estimate mark : 42%
my estimated marks for step 2 is 70++ and I get rank 1 ...
this time I really screw my written test ... so sad .. sad dao no feeling jor
我没有爱情，学业就像我的一切，是种伤心
现实和幻想混浊了，我分不清
如果上天要给我剑桥，为何会让我最后一个考试考到酱烂，不明白，就好像我被玩了一圈，interview觉得自己应该可以进了，现在却不一定了。。
被玩的感觉，但也许是上天在告诉我，我想给你进剑桥，但是你要知觉你还需好很努力，即使进到了
我只想，让我读过的学校骄傲
也许数学好不是天生的，就像刘明华
即使新加坡，香港学的数学很深，但是到了大学也不一定厉害，因为中学是把全部资料塞进你的头脑
可是大学是你自己找资料，
我在HELP浪费了太多时间，变笨了太多
重新呼吸吧。。。至少你有了方向，懂得好如何用你的生命
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Why ?
An interesting origin ... The separation between Cambridge and Oxford ...
It was a storytale .... with all those greenaries ... but through decades ...
It's now filled with intense pressure ... or in another word ... intense happiness from challenges ...
Rumours spread ... wonder it is through or not .. as it is not the first hand infomation
You will be asked to finish 30 books in one weekend
Half of the candidates will drop out after the second year for Mathematics
You will only have 2 hours of sleep everyday
So why do you still want to enter this gorgeous kingdom , that is only suitable for genius ...
Why do you want to suffer for 3/4 years ...and yet you need to pay ex tuition fees ... probably half a million ...
Well ... reasonable answers are :
You will have the aura once you enter ... the fame to step on every corner of the world , or you will have bright future once you leave that kingdom , and you can enter prestigious company , working in high post as you have lots of contacts of future or current leaders from each countries ... Or maybe you would say that you could have the top brains beside you ... so you will be polluted by their wisdom .. and so you will find your true self in no time ... Or you will say that you will find the tradition of Mathematics or maybe other subjects differ from individuals ... you can enter Issac Newton's room in Trinity college and sit on his bed ... you could see how Nobel's/Fields' winner get their inspiration ... or even more you can think of ...
Cambridge is what you make .... but it's definitely gonna be a tough place to be ....
So will you even be happy when you get a conditionl letter ...
Because all those " reasonable" answers can't take you through the hard times ...
What will be you reason you have to get you through when you are in the kick out zone ... definitely not challenging anyway ... maybe you will transfer to another uni's hopefully you can still read the same year ...
So why? It's just fame?
Without your own reason ... you are just another idiot , following the trend ...
Every warrior has a name ... so every warrior has his own destination , direction ...
Without that spirit ... you will sink in crowd ... unable to find yourself ... dragging by darkness
So tell me ... if you know why you will like to enter the kingdom ... If you can find out ....
It was a storytale .... with all those greenaries ... but through decades ...
It's now filled with intense pressure ... or in another word ... intense happiness from challenges ...
Rumours spread ... wonder it is through or not .. as it is not the first hand infomation
You will be asked to finish 30 books in one weekend
Half of the candidates will drop out after the second year for Mathematics
You will only have 2 hours of sleep everyday
So why do you still want to enter this gorgeous kingdom , that is only suitable for genius ...
Why do you want to suffer for 3/4 years ...and yet you need to pay ex tuition fees ... probably half a million ...
Well ... reasonable answers are :
You will have the aura once you enter ... the fame to step on every corner of the world , or you will have bright future once you leave that kingdom , and you can enter prestigious company , working in high post as you have lots of contacts of future or current leaders from each countries ... Or maybe you would say that you could have the top brains beside you ... so you will be polluted by their wisdom .. and so you will find your true self in no time ... Or you will say that you will find the tradition of Mathematics or maybe other subjects differ from individuals ... you can enter Issac Newton's room in Trinity college and sit on his bed ... you could see how Nobel's/Fields' winner get their inspiration ... or even more you can think of ...
Cambridge is what you make .... but it's definitely gonna be a tough place to be ....
So will you even be happy when you get a conditionl letter ...
Because all those " reasonable" answers can't take you through the hard times ...
What will be you reason you have to get you through when you are in the kick out zone ... definitely not challenging anyway ... maybe you will transfer to another uni's hopefully you can still read the same year ...
So why? It's just fame?
Without your own reason ... you are just another idiot , following the trend ...
Every warrior has a name ... so every warrior has his own destination , direction ...
Without that spirit ... you will sink in crowd ... unable to find yourself ... dragging by darkness
So tell me ... if you know why you will like to enter the kingdom ... If you can find out ....
Friday, July 16, 2010
Inception
这现实世界，有太多的矛盾
人们是否都活在幻想中
就像我
一个一个的小说
这才发现小说分两种
第一是你制造你虚拟的世界，
把你渴望的改造成故事
第二是你把现实中的不快乐或某种感觉，
用小说来发泄
就像我渴望世界和平
渴望完美无缺的永恒爱情
或是寻找属于自己的力量
和我接下来设计的小说
如何掌控自己的行动
如果说现实是梦境的倒影
而梦境同于梦想仍然只是一种想法
一种概念，一种灵感
那么，我已被幻想堆死了
人们是否都活在幻想中
就像我
一个一个的小说
这才发现小说分两种
第一是你制造你虚拟的世界，
把你渴望的改造成故事
第二是你把现实中的不快乐或某种感觉，
用小说来发泄
就像我渴望世界和平
渴望完美无缺的永恒爱情
或是寻找属于自己的力量
和我接下来设计的小说
如何掌控自己的行动
如果说现实是梦境的倒影
而梦境同于梦想仍然只是一种想法
一种概念，一种灵感
那么，我已被幻想堆死了
Friday, July 2, 2010
平线
也许对于我，我只需要最平凡的选择
也许我心中说了，我能进warwick就很足够了
徐志摩，突然间离你很远很远，
也许我们根本没有共同点
再别康桥，这句话对于我深刻又清澈
我只是一个平凡的人
拥有许多梦想的平凡人
即使拥有所有，或一无所有
都只是一个平凡人在思考
一开始，我们是平行线
我眺望，爱沿着抛物线
消失于，无穷的渐近线
六年后，图解生命的夜
才发现，我绕了一个圆
回到了，曾眺望的原点
而最终，你我是平行线
始终都，没有任何交点
为何缘，短得不如一线？
（为何圆比一条线还短）
也许我心中说了，我能进warwick就很足够了
徐志摩，突然间离你很远很远，
也许我们根本没有共同点
再别康桥，这句话对于我深刻又清澈
我只是一个平凡的人
拥有许多梦想的平凡人
即使拥有所有，或一无所有
都只是一个平凡人在思考
一开始，我们是平行线
我眺望，爱沿着抛物线
消失于，无穷的渐近线
六年后，图解生命的夜
才发现，我绕了一个圆
回到了，曾眺望的原点
而最终，你我是平行线
始终都，没有任何交点
为何缘，短得不如一线？
（为何圆比一条线还短）
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