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Saturday, April 24, 2010

Hedons Calcalus

Based on consequences theory:

1)Pros to have 10.5:
Pleasure-My environment persuade to have one, could me unreasonable but there is the truth(2),

2)Companion-When I feel lonely, when I feel like protecting or helping someone, someone to laugh with and stay romantic(7),

3)REASONS to go on- Love was reasons for me to work hard for myself, ranging from studies, society and my life, unable to deny, the core reason I'm so successful now was initially because of love (9),

4)Learn(7)-to get along with people, with learn from happiness and tears, problems with a mate is necessary to marriage, to accept and give, feel the balance of nature when you are truthful to each other

Cons to have 10.5:
1)Divergence in time(7)- To be frank, me myself do not know whether I can handle the situation when I'm trying to arrange my time, while studies result in gain for myself but love brings both gain and loss

2)Loss in choice(9)- Giving up the forest for a tree, this is an issue for people that is truthful and sincere and commits their obligations towards love . For me, I could definitely get one that has enthusiasm towards knowledge and serious about their life, ONE that do not live just because of love, for me that is brainless

3)High opportunity of PAIN(9)- This is an issue, I will overrate this because I can't stand the PAIN anymore , the feelings of despair towards love when everything turns into hatred. Moreover the relationship now is not possible to be everlasting, the gap between the two when you are in different uni, oceans and lands far apart

4)Bill (3)- I am using prepaid now, gonna pay for myself, haha . Sms and phone calls are essential to keep a close relationship

Pros not to have 10.5:

1)To stay single(5): To stay single is an option, people not having a mate tend to have one while those that are having will hope not to have when quarrels and problems occur. There is never a better option. Since you will have a family one day, why don;t you enjoy the life of single when you have the opportunity

2)Emotion under control(8): you will ride on a roller coaster when you are having a relationship, ups and downs could happen just in one day, let's think of those nights, when you could not sleep just because your emotions, excess oxytocin in your bloodstream or maybe depress

3)Stay natural in crowd(3): at least you won't be looked up as the odd one when you are with your friends. You tend to ignore your friends when you have one, because you only have 24 hours a day and you can't please everyone at a time

4)Reign of Chaos(8): what will happen when the person you like turn out to be your friend's girl. Competition is necessary and college life will turn into a battlefield. Just to mention, I won't go for a girl that once belongs to my close friends, kind of double cross.

Cons not to have 10.5

1) Abnormal (7): We are human beings, not robots , we live with pairs, that is the nature. Whenever we have feelings, we tend to express. Haiz, I try so hard to hide my feelings in the past so I could not turn irrational when I see the girl, and that is obviously abnormal. And I am now like thinking too perfect about my future mate, abnormal again. no emotional is also abnormal.

2)Uncertainties for love(9): This could be something really minor for the majority, but for me I could not easily fall in love, till now I could conclude that I only loved one person in my 18 years life, I do not know whether I could love another one in the future. The 7th years, I still remember her.

3)Memory(2): you could only hug a person if he or she is your mate, in normal condition. Movies, shopping, moments of life, memories of life, holding hands,hugs, kissing. I don't have those irrational moments where could be long-lasting memories.

4)Uncompetitive(9): I never chase one, no failure means I don't learn any lessons, those rules exist, unless I could find one with pure fate. Those friends, so pro, and this is the law of nature, nourishing by fates.

Hedons calcalus
= Hedons- Dolors
= Pros to have 10.5 + Cons not to have 10.5 -( Pros not to have 10.5 + Cons to have 10.5)
=(2+7+9+7)+(7+9+2+9)-(5+8+3+8)-(7+9+9+3)
=0

Conclusion: It does not help me to solve my problems.. haha .. Moral studies is just useless ****
Anywhere, the choice are mine... I am happy with what I possess now =)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Anonymous said...
Your life is just only getting colorless. My life already became dull without any shine. After seeing your message, I know that is time for me to give up on what i want. This comment should be wrote be4 the class trip on your second post... I didn't. I lie to myself, I am selfish, I wanna give myself a 1 last chance. From Tuesday to Thursday, I was thinking about this question all day long. I followed her almost in all the place she went. The last morning, I made my decision, the last choice I gave it to the fate. The Fate will decide what way I should choose. Yes, I know I am an idiot,selfish person. I don't have the courage to decide myself. Letting the choice to the fate, my result will turn out 50:50.If I do the decision myself I might get a higher chance or a lower chance. The result came out with a full stop, nothing more I can add on, the paper is full, there's no more space for me to write a new paragraph. Fate already have decided. I don't wanna force myself to continue this relationship, is time to give up. We know each other for 12 year,6 primary,5 secondary, the last year should have been secondary, but you left.After the message I received, I only know that you and me having the same feeling on a same person after so many year. I'm sorry, so many year has passed, until now i only get to know the truth, I thought I know you, but no. Thank you, you have been the best friend of mine during this 11 year, the last year is a test for me and you, thanks you for your support during my hard days... I'm sorry...TJ

November 26, 2010 8:15 AM


Anonymous said...
It is a total lie if you see this message. You didn't misunderstand, your guess is correct, I am the person who do not dare to say out, do not dare to speak out. By typing this message to you, my tears are dropping.I'm forcing myself to type what i Don't want to type. I'm sorry, I lied to you, I also lied to myself that I just wanna to be a friend of you. This might be the punishment of mine over the past 6 years; I accepted what the fate told me. I'm sorry, during these 8 years, I have already forced myself not to think about you by getting addicted to games, sports and even alcohol drinks. The message I sent to you consist of 95% true story, other than the issue for you not to misunderstand. I don't have the courage to tell you even using text message, I'm a total failure, a total idiot.Yes, you can hate me, you can ignore me. Liking a person that doesn't have a feeling on its own is a painful job. And now, the last sentence which I really want to tell you is not "Thank you" anymore but ... I Love You ...