Ireland + Me

来到英国，玩了伦敦，爱尔兰，过后要去瑞士

首先，就记载我在爱尔兰去了那些地方。。

Day 1:
Guinness Storehouse
Kilmainham Gaol(Jail)

Day 2:
Dublin Castle
Christ Church Cathedral
Viking House
National Wax Museum

Day 3:
Trinity College, Dublin (Old library)
National Library of Ireland

Day 4:
Water exhibition
National Museum of Natural History
National Museum of Archaeology
Leinster house (outside view) -parliament of ireland-

Also went to
-Palace Bar
-Potterhouse Bar
- etc bar

俊杰，下次你来到了，你再带我走你的大学 =）
还有那些民间小巷 =）

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从高二失去自我
是其中的一个我，那个能完全持之以恒的我
能每天完成自己所设下的目标

万分怀念与渴望那个我
唯有体验了艰苦的境遇，才会有精进奋发的心

我没有艰苦的境遇，一直活在舒适的环境，但渴望那颗心
我要到最接近天堂的地方，寻找那颗心
我的目标们
总需要有萌生发芽的一天
学业
音乐
投资
健身
生命

最后写下一句让我不再有完美主义的话语，
不再那么执著的语录

你要知道这个世间是一个一半一半的世界
白天一半 晚上一半
正一半 邪一半
就是你喜欢的一半 你不喜欢的一半
就是光明一半 黑暗一半
（星云）师父讲的 大概一口气讲了20几个一半一半
而你呢 因为你只能接受 美好的 光明的 喜欢的 如法的
你只能接受这一半 你根本拥有的是一个 残缺不全的世间
我当时真的是吓了一跳
我以为 我很要求完美
结果我却是残缺
所以师父就说 你不要急
直到你把另外那一半
黑暗的 丑陋的 你不喜欢的这一半 都包容进去之后
你就可以拥有一个完美的世间

大家加油！

满足感

猜想为何现代人坐在电脑面前时，会先选择玩电子游戏机、浏览乱七八糟的网页，然后才选择自己正经的功课或工作？
这问题困扰了我很久，明明前者无法让我得到长期的快乐，无法让我达成我设下的目标，明明让我自己觉得自己在浪费时间，却为何还继续呢？

他们同样是需要重复同样的事情，比如Facebook 按击游戏和重复温习课业
两者沉闷的程度都是一样的

Humans only find repetition enjoyable when they choose it.

就像现实生活，在游戏里你肯能成功或失败，这代表了游戏不但没有带给你快乐，反而有时带给你烦恼。。。而带来的快乐是虚假的，当你停止游戏，面对生活时，你还是空虚的。。。

游戏就那么容易让人满足吗？是否让自己为正经事满足呢？

From Malcolm Gladwell Job satisfaction theory: (I just uses his point, but interpret them differently)

(1)Autonomy 自主 在游戏世界里，你是角色扮演，可以有自由地选择自己的道路，而往往在现实生活中我们都是受限制的，比如被人家管，被环境逼才去学习或做工，造成环境控制了你，而你却失去了控制的权力

没有人喜欢被人家管，所以你需要在自愿的情况下做事情

(2)Complexity 复杂 这必须是具有挑战性的事情，在工作上人们希望有挑战的而不是一层不变的；学习中也是，当你挑战复杂的事情，而别人无法解决，你就会有动力继续挑战下去，这代表人们都必须选择自己有天赋的工作或学科，这样才能有能力挑战下去

要知道，这世界不需要你样样都通，小学中学学业样样好也没用，到大学你还是要选择一样学位来修，也代表你要选择你最有潜力的科目或工作

(3)Connection Between Effort and Reward 你需要情绪上的动力来完成一样东西，在游戏世界里，你的努力和获得的功劳是息息相关的，反而在现实中，我们往往需要很久的努力，在可以看到功劳，造成情绪上失去了动力

在要交功课的前一天，你会想不如先玩游戏，可以顿时得到努力的功劳，比如说在对打游戏胜利，然后才做功课，因为功课的功劳是在半年后才看得到

对你做的事情产生满足感，是人生动力的一部分

Intern Learning:Gambling & Accounting

Today I am going to share two things I learn in my internship at Interpacific

The first one is why investment without strategy is a gamble.
Provided you have no any knowledge about economics and stock markets, if you invest in any random stocks, the chance for it to rise =0.5

However there is a commission for buying and selling stocks
Everytime you buy any stocks, you need to pay
Stamp duty= 0.1% of money invest
Clearing fees= 0.03% with a ceiling of RM200
Brokerage fees:
Offline(Which means you call your brokerage firms to help you to buy or sell)
Online( You buy or sell yourself through online)
Offline brokerage= 0.6% below 100k invest(Minimum=rm40),0.3% for above 100k invest
There will be a 20% discount which is nearly 0.42% for below 100k invest(minimum=rm28)
*Trader account commission = stamp duty only = 0.03%

So there is around 0.73% of fees everytime you buy or sell a stocks
So your loss in such cost=1.46%
So your probability of winning is less than 0.5
Implying you are gambling
(The probability of picking a rising stock=0.5 is just an assumption. Since economic is generally growing , chances for stock to rise is actually>0.5 but I cant locate the data, so let's just put it simple)

Second thing is about Accounting , Let's put the following things as mathematical equations:

Tangible Asset= Total Asset-Intangible Asset
Net tangible Asset= Book value= Tangible Asset - Total Liabilities
= Total Asset- Intangible Asset-Total Liabilities
Tangible Book Value= Common Equity- Intangible Asset
Common Equity= Share capital + Additional paid in capital+ Retained earnings

So what is the difference or relation between book value & tangible book value.
I can't figure out through maths, anyone from accounting knows the answer?

Intern 3-4

Doing the dividend yield stuff all the time, hopefully it will be a useful report for others ... going to write y economics news regarding the list on my own ... bloomberg is really useful ,listing all the stuff that you want.

I learn to split my investment portfolio into 3 category, low,medium and high risk ... certainly the low risk will be buying high dividend yeld stocks ...

Learnt my first investment strategy Rule1 ... Gonna try it out with virtual stock market ...
Plan to memorise all stocks in BursaMalaysia ... easier to learn Malaysia market ... by then ... at least I can understand all those news ...

Intern day1-2

Am going to write down interesting about my internship in Interpacific Research Department, just to keep a record ... Geez

First of all, glad to be in Research Department because I am able to touch the Bloomberg computer worth RM 10k per month for subscription ... It is like a wikipedia mostly for Economics and Finance ... First day, I learn all those commands by reading tutorial documents, glad there are tutorial videos & online examination too !! .. So am able to get a certificate as a Bloomberg user ... Am going to take the test ... Another good thing about this computer is I can message for Help whenever I do not know how to use those functions ... As for today, I arrange companies according to dividend yield and later on market capacity ... However dividend yield is inaccurate due to the fact companies are undergoing "capital repayment", means they sell their capital to pay back investors.

I start up learning arranging morning news for Interpacific users, it is just about copy and paste from other websites. Another hot topic in my department is OldTown!! ... It is just listed today with an IPO 1.25, and I guess the average price for it today is 1.37, so that will be a 8% earning if you buy it and it is just a few months... Actually it is quite low considering 8%,you will have better opportunity if you are in financial field. For example, MSM which is a sugar company, if you buy it on the first day (2.6)and sell it on the second day(3.9), it is already 33% earning, if you keep it for a week , it is 5.2, you just double your asset... However playing without researching is still quite risky... It may seem payout is pretty high, but no knowledge in finacial field is equal to trowing money away ....

Well I heard a teenager come out as a trader without finishing SPM, earn 22m as a trader but later on bankrupt, so dont think it is great to be in the financial line

Well I am gonna introduce my mates for one time
Rosali- A quiet malay senior
Robert- Hilarious man, 2 years here, teaching me stuff all the time, but he is quiet busy so I am actually playing Bloomberg all the time
Wendy- 2 years senior, friendly too
Juliet- another intern, from U Sarawak, live in Cameron Highland

Well ... kinda free though, reading my own books , playing Bloomberg
there is a dirty secret from my department ... hehe ...

And the clue is MIDF ... Shhh

I love what?

I like writing my feelings
I like analyzing things
I like composing music
I like writing novels
I like helping others
I like my imagination
I like Mathematics
I like Investment
I like philosophy
I like basketball
I like travelling
I like badminton
I like sleeping
I like mystery
I like gaming
I like movies
I like music

But what do I really love?
As in I will feel happy even I am put under great pressure ...
Or even meeting up tons of failure even I have put in all I have
Or even losing hope and reason during the process

But I will still continue doing that particular thing
What is that?
The thing that I meant to love ...

再别康桥

作者: 徐志摩

　
轻轻的我走了，
正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。
　
那河畔的金柳，
是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。
　
软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草！
　
那榆荫下的一潭，
不是清泉，
是天上虹；
揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
　
寻梦？撑一支长篙，
向青草更青处漫溯；
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌。
　
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥！
　
悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩。

现代中国人崇拜的对象
人们只记得徐志摩，却忘了的鲁迅
人们在颂扬爱情，却忘了关照社会

转载- 人生的三种寄托

人一生该有三种寄托:肉体寄托、情感寄托以及精神寄托。

衣食住行为人生的肉体寄托。

民以食为天,因为生存不能忍受饥饿;家是你理所当然的港口,因为你不可能永远流浪在外。

充裕味美的食物,丰厚艳丽的服饰,豪华舒适的住所,再配上方便而又实惠的交通工具是芸芸众生梦寐以求的肉体寄托。

亲情、友情和爱情为人生的情感寄托。

从你呱呱落地起,亲情,让你感受温暖,让你健康成长。长大成人后,亲情,才让你延续生命,让你幸福圆满。远离人世前，亲情，让你安度晚年，让你远离孤单。

当你刚刚懂事并开始与别人交往，友情就像影子一样跟随在你身旁。让你在困难的时候得到帮助，痛苦的时候同人分担，受挫的时候得到安慰，高兴的时候有人分享。

当你开始对异性产生好感，并且与其交往，相互欣赏，信任，爱情便默默无闻地滋润着你的心房。

温暖体贴的亲情，真诚纯正的友情，相濡以沫的爱情，是幸福人生不可少的情感寄托。

常识、理想和信仰为人生的精神寄托。

因为你有了知识，才使你拥有生存和竞争的力量，才使你具备优秀的道德与修养，才让你能够挖掘出创造的灵感。

因为你有了人生的理想，才有你追求的动力；才有你工作的乐趣，才让你不会在生命的航程中迷失方向。

因为你有了对自由、个性以及真、善、美的追求，才不会是一个生活的奴隶，才不会在人群中找不到自己，才不会失去对美好生活的强烈期盼。

拥有广博的知识，具备崇高的理想，人生才不会苍白空虚

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说实在，现在是我生命中空前的低潮，当你用了大部分时间去努力的东西，却达不到的感觉，是如此的打击
我总是说，你不会明白的，因为那不是你，有谁能说与我感同身受呢

我害怕我放弃，我不在意剩下的几个月我是像落魄的灵魂飘浮着，像是得过且过的行尸走肉。我一直在说我在休息，我累了，只想如此地休息

只想要上了大学，再设下目标让后达到它

我不想努力了19年让后放弃，因为放弃后的感觉像是地狱，当你努力争取梦想的感觉像是天堂

至于情感寄托，我终于再明白一件事，每个人心中，如不过不是每一人，至少我是。每一个人心中一定会有另一个人，把那人当成寄托，不管是真实还是自己虚幻捏造的人

现在，我又绕了一圈，感觉心中有你的感觉比较美好，那些日子，我是如何这么努力的？
是因为你，让我感觉到，我必须努力，才能够给你一个美好的家
但当心中对你绝望的时候，我就感觉不到想努力的冲动

我始终相信，大学里会有一个人，不再是我捏造的角色
一个能并肩作战的人

藤井树

Funny ... I find that I feel happy whenever I chat with old friends ...
I find that I don't like blogging my feelings ... Prefer to talk with others on phone or sending them private message ... Haha

藤井树

有了我另一半的梦想工作
那就是写小说和编歌

觉得音乐很奇妙，像是有了一些数学的定理在内
keys,chord

现在的生活，算是最轻松的吧
大学condition 肯定可以达到
只是看我要不要努力达到更高的

快乐是做自己喜欢做的事情
现在生活很忙，可是却觉得生活很空虚

我期待那种期待的心情
现在。。。竟会害怕期待，当那些期待带来的是绝望

我学着不再与任何人比较，想多看自己多点
了解自己最想要的是什么

那叫快乐吧

Emotion

也许我沉醉在自己的幻想中太久太久，直到我了解了现实中你，才知道现实的你不是幻想中的你
我说你变了，也许变成了我心中的陌生人，而为何却把感觉都放在一个陌生人身上呢？
也许是因为我需要寄托吧。。。以前那些时间。。。
现在我竟在怀疑我是否曾经爱过一个人
也许我只是在爱在你在我心中的幻想吧

突然觉得一切很假，那些关于你的事情
如果他换成是我，我也会和他有一样的决定
面对如此的场景

也许我不会再无意地感性地喜欢上别人
还是理性的喜欢比较实际

幻想中的女孩
能遇到就叫缘分吧，因为只有我知道我会喜欢上怎样的人
也许会有那么一天，我会觉得她是对的人


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你和我之间的距离叫时间
时间淡化了一切
让一切有了距离

掩饰

生日快乐

我的存在

我想我已经不是纯粹地喜欢你，而是爱上了你吧。。。
虽然你对我一切的付出除了感谢，还是感谢，但是对于我已经是无所谓了
也许我已经不再期盼有任何的回报，只会继续地付出。。。

也许我是向上一世的你还债吧。。。所以才会如此的付出
你知道吗？我竟然不会因为你的沉默而难过了，
而让我伤心的是看见你的部落中的痛苦。

那天，我懂了很多事，，看见了他和那些女生的谈话，他说话的语气总是带有刺激性
也许那是火花的燃点吧。。。所以我也不再拿他来比较了，因为我和他是完全不一样的人

曾经的我在你那一句我已经有了男朋友之后离开了，不过日子却没有更好过
这一次回来了，也许是注定吧，让我为你疗伤，
也许我可以比他给得更多，但是我终究不会是他
希望剩下的半年能让你找到生命的希望吧
只想让你相信，也许也是让自己相信吧，人间还有真情

如果那是我在你世界里存在的原因，我也会倘然地接受
因为你，我的世界拥有了一切，所以现在在补偿你吧

我太坦白。。。

CNY

Well ... a really tough year .... busy with those exams ....
Regarding about exams ... Maybe I should be satisfied with 3 A* ... hmm ... Chemistry ... a bit hard to get A* ... haha and absolutely for Econs ... Getting an A for Econs is just enough for me ...

Happy Chinese New Year everyone
My 1st wish:
I hope to completely practice those ritual from " The monk who sold his ferrari" by Robin Sharma
A really good book ... and I am pretty sure by making it a habit ... I will definitely gain eternal happiness, good health and limitless energy .... those are common knowledge actually ... but making them your habits will give you the strength to gather the wealth in this world

My 2nd wish:
I hope to get entrance to the 3 remaining university pending ... I prefer the 2 HK university I applied ... there's certain degree of hope to get a job without being graduated from this course .... maybe for now .. not sure for the future ....
but I am ok with the rest of options ... if I take a master in US later ... being in the top 8 school for financial engineering in US will bring me to my dream work

My 3rd wish:
Well ... I guess I should 含蓄 about it ... refer to my previous post =) ...

Happy Chinese New Year ... may all your dreams come true ...

Blessed by .... ting jing =)

3rd Wish

This is encrypted: ***
Hint:The place for dinner on 2/2 (7letters)

Quant

Quant

I desperately want to be a quant ... I just apply 2 universities for this course ....
Both are good options .... I wish to enter the financial sector for the rest of my life ...

so hard

huh ... now I only left 3 offers pending ....
so now is 3/7

UCL A*AA
King's College AAA
Warwick AAB because I have sat for STEPs papers ... if they do not considered then is A*AA

Left 3 uni's pending ....
LSE ... the statistics is freaking

Applications 2009: 1,136
First year students 2009: 103

That's for Maths and Economics .... and my course is co-related to it because it is exchangeable
The predicted offers will be A*AA ...but the problem is ... the statistics is freaking scary about 1 out of 11 ... sometimes it goes up to 1 out of 15 ....
Thinking that maybe I should have applied for actuarial science and then shift to maths and econs ... lol ... maybe easier to get in that way ... lol ... but changing is another issue then
Theoretically I should have accept the offer straight away if I get it ... but I really don't know ...

I just know that I will straight away accept HKU/HKust if they offer me quantitative finance ... my dream course ... muahaha ..
Even US Princeton and Columbia only offer Quantitative Finance & Operation Management ....
++ HKust can offer to take more credits in Mathematics ... that will literally fulfill my dreams ...

But the statistics are even freaking scary ... HKU only offering 20 places ... HKust offering 30 places ...
The numbers are only for reference , but stating it really means something

Warwick has a freaking nice course ... allowing me to take credits that I love ... I would definitely take max credits( if no extra tuition fees are charged) ... and maybe sneak some classes eg Philosophy etc
But the problem is employment ... note that the course is MORSE .. and what we studied are listed after the course ... Employee need to view our credits one by one ... that sounds really annoying for them

UCL is really prestige ... was ranked 4th before ... now dropping to 22nd for THE ranking ....
Should be fun ... but they are only giving out limited credits ... so that's another issue

Hoping for the best ... HKU+HKust ... =)

我不要 没有你

最近有了个新创作，用来形容这一切的感觉再适合不过了，想是可以当主打的

我不要 没有你

明明是我在你身后， 给了你那么多的加油

在你最脆弱的时候， 给了你最多的感动

一天 可以 落空

明明是你在我的心中， 却像是虚幻的场梦

在我最落魄的时候， 你却说感觉不再有

泡沫 一碰 分手

我不要 一个人 无人时 都会想起你

我不要 呼唤着 你的名 却没有人来理

我不要 凄凉地 等着你 却不见你踪影

我不要 没有你的世界 脆弱地呼吸

我不要 没有你的一切 奄奄的气息（奄奄的窒息）

你是否知道 那天以后 你就像是影子， 不断的旋绕在我的脑海中 无法摆脱你

我终于懂了，我分手时的感觉是什么

第一个感觉是没有感觉。 原来最痛苦的情绪是没有情绪

也许是麻痹了，连脑细胞也不知道要如何反应了

第二感觉是痛苦。像是无法接受以后不会有你，再到了我的身边

原来失去时，最无法接受的是你根本没有拥有一个值得自己信服的原因

为什么你选择他，而不是我，明明我都证明给了你看我能保护你一辈子

第三个感觉是挽回。也许正常人在失去的时候是伤心，过后想起还是伤心

而我不要活得像这样的懦夫，我会发誓让自己活得更好，让自己一定要发光发热

在世界的舞台上，我会喧哗地让你觉得，你在和我分手那天的决定是错误的

我这人一向，都是礼尚往来的，谢谢你抛弃了我，伤心地让我无法在提起你的名字

也不会再提你的名字，只要我的威望比你来的高的时候

我不想 在别人的嘴中听起你的名字，因为你永远会成为我的影子

我不懂得如何再爱你，你却是那么地绝情

总有一天 我会感谢

我那年 没有你

风影

2011

新年了。。。

一开始，就会有很多的事情会发生
5/1 剑桥出offer

9/1 港大面试

新的一年，我很想过会以前在中华的日子，每天都有数学题的挑战，活在数学乐趣里。。。

去年，一整年，过得很乱，看了一句很有意思的句子

多跟有梦想的人相处，这样你才会活在激励当中，

反而少参那些会毁灭你的梦想的人

我想对我而言，我会开始向往结交正面思考的人。。。

也许那也成了我择偶的首要条件吧

我想我的未来生活是充满正面力量的

所以才想挤进世界顶尖大学

也许我要拿完全部offer。。。是很奢侈的要求，剑桥，港大，香港科技 。。。能拿到7/7 吗？

我要屹立 万山之巅

从此找到。。。生命的火炬！！